I am stuck once again in a circle of questions regarding diagnoses, labeling, whether to seek help, where to turn for help, what is helpful and what is not. I have been trying to talk to whomever I come in contact with who might have experience with this stuff, or might have an opinion, or advice or anything. And I am sometimes surprised, sometimes enlightened, sometimes baffled, sometimes relieved at their responses.
The reality is that it is a personal decision. It's a tough call. And I start to think about one child and what they might need, and then am distracted in my thoughts by wondering about a different child, and then come back to what I need to be doing differently in my life to better meet my children's needs, and then I end up confused, overwhelmed, and anxious. Getting nowhere.
For those who might be new to the sagas:
I have one child who most probably has inattentive-ADHD, one with speech issues and odd social quirks (and hand-flapping), one diagnosed with expressive language disorder, ADHD-combined type, and anxiety disorder, and one who at this point we are just defining as a "very difficult temperament."
Anyway - there were a lot of things I could write about. Different ideas and perspectives I have heard about recently.
But this morning I came across this quote that I did want to share:
There are two ways to study butterflies: chase them
with nets and inspect their dead bodies, or sit quietly
in a garden and watch them dance among the
- NONGNUCH BASSHAM
And it just struck me.
That is exactly the quandary, isn't it? Because there are things to be learned from each type of study, aren't there? Is one really better than the other?
And I want to be able to sit quietly and just enjoy my children. I do. But I want someone to give me answers as well.
And these butterflies flit away so quickly and I just can't seem to grasp onto anything. I just don't know what to do.
I wish I knew what to do.